False Judgement

This post may or may not get me into a little trouble.

I wasn't raised with religion. My father was baptist and my mother claimed to be pentecostal. They never forced me to go to church. Although I did try a few Baptist and Christian churches on my own during my childhood to fulfil an emptiness. During my short time on this Earth, I've been baptised 3 times into 3 different religions (Christian, Mormon, and Judaism), taught 3 different ways of life and each time, I ended up with the same life philosophy... believe in God, live right, do right and you get what you give in life. It doesn't matter if I go to church once a year, month, day or multiple times in my life... what matters is what is in my heart. I did each one with different mindsets of fitting in and being a part of a community with one common belief and love for community and mankind. After time, the glory faded and it seemed people put on a "face" on during sabbath and turned into another completely in everyday life. I don't like drama, I steer clear of it. I try to help those in need that want to be helped. I try not to gossip- it doesn't do anything but hurt yourself and others. This often leads me to be a loner amongst most people, weather it be be personal or at work. I can't simply join in a conversation I don't believe in or if I think it may come with the cost of someone Else's humility. I don't get joy out of being segregated because I don't claim to be a certain religion or fit into a cliche of clicks around the workforce. I am, who I am. I am a simple gal who believes in God but not the "politics".

Today, I was standing by as I over heard a conversation between two people on how the morals of marriage has changed in this day in age. One stated they and their spouse were the only two married out of the group of friends they associated themselves with and the other partner in the conversation had prided themselves on the fact they had been married within their church and had children but at the end of the day, was divorced. They complained about the negatives in their lives and their childrens lives. They treated the word divorce like such a shameful thing. Don't get me wrong, I don't believe in getting divorced for an easy way out of a boring life, but I do believe it is necessary when there is abuse and neglect involved. I stated, "things sometimes just don't work out" and I got the nastiest look and the response that people simply just don't try hard enough. They didn't seem too interested in what I had to say and I felt like I intruded in their conversation. I, then, exited the conversation. Yes, in fact, sometimes two "wrongs" don't make a "right" or when one person isn't involved in the relationship anymore as if they've "checked out". In my case, I had a fairytale relationship of 7 years until my abusive husband cheated on me and left me for another woman who had children. Did I have a choice? In some ways, I did but I chose to live on. Sometimes, "life is what happens, when you're making other plans". I think it's good to look at the bigger picture and not judging a book by it's cover. Personal beliefs and standards are a great thing to have but keeping in mind that nobody is perfect and that's why humans are so fascinating. Living for the future is the key because no one can change the past.

I believe no one should judge anyone except for God. 

Just a personal tidbit... don't mind me...